Proverbs 3:5-6 (NASB) Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and
He will make your paths straight.
For years, I leaned on my own ability to “fix” my issues
with food; to “fix” my health. I trusted my own knowledge for what I thought
was best. I sought help from books, websites, and friends. Not that this is
bad, but I neglected to truly seek it from the one who knows me best; the One
who already knew the right way for me to go. Why does it take us so long to
move in the right direction? Why must we fail and fall numerous times before we
seek the One who leads us to success? It’s that darn free will LOL
True, I did seek input from others who have used or are
currently in Weight Watchers. I took the time to do my own research on the
program as well. And I did pray through these things once the info from other
sources stopped flowing. I then took all that to the Lord and asked if this was
the right step for me. I did my homework then waited for the evaluation of 'yay' or 'nay'.
So my conversation with God went like this:
“Is this what will work for me Lord? I’m tired of trying and
failing. I know it’s because I run out ahead of you most of the time but this
time, I really want to know if this is Your will for me. I’m not going to take
the next step unless I know for sure. Oh Lord, I desperately want to be
healthy. I’ve destroyed this temple, abused it for so many years and if I
continue on the path I’m on, sooner than later it will fall to pieces. I’m
ready to start rebuilding it brick by brick. I know Lord, it’s going to take
some time because I’ve done some serious damage, not just to the outside but
inside as well. There will be times when the process goes fast and weeks where
little may happen, but I will trust You no matter what. I want to be able to
live and move and breathe for Your Kingdom purposes.”
I compared myself to a dull, rusty robot, its gears all
corroded on the inside for lack of movement; unable to move because weeds and
vines have grown up where they don’t belong prohibiting it from doing what it
was intended for.
Because I ate for comfort and chose foods that had no
benefits for my body, fat now surrounds my organs threatening to suffocate them.
I’m sluggish, unable to move in ways I used to, unable to take pleasure in things
I once enjoyed. And the poor choices show through on the outside as well. The
tiredness on my face, too many “Peeps” have grown a second chin, too many donuts
made what used to be a tiny bump of a belly into a large roll and so on. My eyes no
longer sparkled, hair no longer shined because for so long I deprived my temple
of what it needed, all for the sake of comfort food in the face of stress, anxiety, depression
and laziness.
But God… has set my feet on a new path. One that will oil my
gears and set them spinning again, weed out the bad habits that keep me stuck, filling
my tank with good fuel that will purge out the sludge. This new direction promotes
structure on a daily basis, something I have been without for far too long and
so desperately need to have. It gives me opportunity to walk alongside others
with the same mission. It calls me to “own” my choices, to come before others
and check my progress weekly. Accountability without condemnation. There are
rewards as we move closer to health, encouragement when we are stuck, support
and solutions when we start going backward.
Not only will this new path break the bonds of fat on my
organs, but also the labels, the chains that have bound me for far too long. I’m
saying goodbye to stress, anxiety, depression and all the other things that
poor health has left me with and saying hello to life and the ability to live
in such a way that brings God glory. Thank you Lord, for this new direction.
Thank you for setting my feet on the path to health and wellbeing.
Blessings in Christ,
Brandy ~
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